We literally saw you breathe your last at around 4:30 in the morning of January 25, 2017. I saw you trying to be strong as you tried to throw up again and then that one last deep breath. I’ll never forget how I felt. We monitored you and looked after you almost 24/7 for 2 days after the vet’s visit. My husband and I never thought we could feel this way for a pet.
Life is made of perpetual hellos and goodbyes, comings and goings, mornings and nights. Unknowingly, we face loss every day—a ballpen, a one-peso coin, strands of hair (no kidding), or someone we love. But we also face beginnings each day. We welcome the sun, new friends, new seasons, and sometimes the start of an eternal love. Life is an endless rhythm of birth and death. This life we have lived has made us whistle for geneses of unexpected journeys, yet it has also forced us to kiss goodbye to so many adventures and people. And ours included Tee.
Tee was one half of the word “sweetie”—my husband’s endearment for me (but we decided to have it spelled as Tee because Tie might be read as something else). Yes, you were indeed a sweetie. You were the delicate one.
You were the perfect golden hamster. And I mean that literally. You had the golden color we were looking for. You were just like me—an introvert. When we first bought you, you were housed together with two other hamsters but you always chose to be on your own in your own designated area. You preferred to eat hidden and away from other people’s eyes. You liked to pouch food and even as you were literally suffering, you kept pouching. You loved wheels! In fact, you didn’t care that your second wheel was too big for you and too noisy. You liked it when we let you out of the cage to explore. In fact, you were the first hamster that learned how to escape! You have always been clever in that sense. You gave me my first awfully deep hamster bite, which bled nonstop, but I didn’t get mad (because it was my fault since I took you by surprise). Tee, you captured us. You had our hearts (just like the other 7).
You are the strongest hamster I know (but I only know 8 of you though)! You fought a good fight. We saw you struggle, we saw your labored breathing for several days, we saw you walk in pain and how you would choose to sleep, probably to ease the pain, we saw you throwing up. You’re a fighter. I’m sure you carried the pain for weeks. I didn’t know hamsters can actually have that kind of strength. You have reminded me that anything is possible and if a hamster can carry that strength, so can I…so can anyone. We’ve been missing you from the moment we woke up. We’ll miss you our charming, quiet hammie with the distinct, alien-like ears. Thank you for teaching us how to be good stewards. Thank you for giving us just a teeny tiny taste what it is like to have a baby. Thank you God that you have lent us this delicate, adorable soul.
You were with us for only 3-4 months but you have our hearts forever. Farewell sweet prince.